All the things I want to say to you, in a song.
posted on Sunday, September 2, 2012 at 9:51 AM |
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The Ones To Love
I have to admit that the past few weeks-slash-months were not the best part of this year—or maybe my life. See, my “boyfriend” for three years broke up with me, and apparently he broke up with me because “I’ve changed.” Aside from the cliche’ that says every single phenomenon on earth (even outside the planet) is capable of changing, I can say that I’m loving the changes in me that he is hating. And I can’t see what’s not to love.
Moving on after a three year relationship is not easy. I don’t even want to talk about it and share the story to everyone. But, a month has passed and somehow, the happiness, the pride and the confidence that those three years with him have taken away from me started to grow back into my system. Little by little, I appreciate myself more. I learned to love myself despite the imperfections and flaws I have. And my friends are happy about it.
I can’t help but to feel happy and giddy whenever my friends tell me they’re proud of me, because I’m much stronger and wiser now. Random text messages of inspiring quotations I receive some days make me smile when I read them in the morning when I wake up. Messages saying “Good Morning, Flo! Smile! :)” makes my day. And to be honest, I’ve never felt so taken care of, like I’m important, like I’m precious.
To Haj, my best friend. Thank you for everything; for listening to my stories and for knowing me very well. Thank you for accommodating my rants and understanding what I really want to tell. Yes, you really know what I mean. Thank you for those impulsive days and nights we spent together, just to help me escape sadness even just for a while.
To Chlyde, for being with me when I was being dumped like shit on a friday-the-thirteenth. Thank you for bringing me back to my senses whenever I seem to lose my sanity and for patting my back when I cried like a baby during those nights.
To Cams, for always reminding me to stop and love myself above others. Thank you for those hugs that kept me from breaking into pieces and for those late night calls just to check if I’m okay and safe.
To Ate Cha, for giving me tons of first hand advice and for telling me her stories, those stories that make me realize that I have to be stronger. Thank you for always reminding me that I can surpass all these soon, because you too, will.
To Paul, for those pangdadaot moments and lines which really mean “i love you”. Thank you for making me strong by challenging me to be tougher and making me stand on my own feet. Thank you for emphasizing that indeed, there are many fish in the sea.
To Lawrence, for those trembling hands and walk out moments, for those eyes that mean serious business. Thank you for protecting me from those people who might let me feel pain, for giving unbiased advice and for telling me to smile and that I can do it.
To Mark, for displaying his concern and interest by commenting on my story virtually and for possibly paying our fare to Baguio. (Sorry Mark, wala na akong maisip. Joke lang to ha!)
To you, Zogo Club; for making me happy, for giving me the simplest reasons to laugh and to smile. Thank you for being with me while I start my life back from scratch. Thank you for being patient, for being kind and for being loving and understanding. Thank you for those conference calls we’re constantly having. Thank you for those ‘friend-terventions’ we’ve had on Mcdo or on our way to our next class. Thank youfor the hugs, the pats in the back, those “I’m proud of you” messages. Thank you for being with me right now, because your mere presence makes me happy.
I know THIS BLOG IS SO CHEESY BUT PLEASE BEAR WITH ME. hihihi
I love you guys! Sa inyo ko nalang ide-devote ang love na umaapaw sa aking puso. I love youuuu! >:D<
MAMA MO. 32, 000!!!! :D
i wish the sun would never go down
posted on Monday, August 6, 2012 at 11:38 AM |
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…because it is at night when i miss you the most. when i realized i am the only one left awake at our house, in my room. Because the night is our time, our time to talk about the things that bother us, or make us happy or random things that happened through each other’s day. and all i wanna do is listen, listen to your stories you enthusiastically told. But you never asked how was my day. why?
I miss you most before i sleep. when i remember your voice singing soft lullabies when i can’t sleep. those times i called you in the middle of the night and you answered on the first rings. those times i cried to you because i’m scared of that horror film character that keeps creeping up to my mind when i close my eyes. those times you’d calm me down when i feel pressured because i can’t find the right words to say when i’m writing an article. But you didn’t answer my 5th, 6th, 7th call tonight. Why?
Every night i miss you. every night i fight the urge to cry. every night i fail.
I can’t wait for that day that i will stop crying. can’t wait for that day when i can see you and feel nothing—not sadness, bitterness nor anger. can’t wait for the time that i would accept that US were no longer a word for you and me. can’t wait for the day this whole thing pass.
Ate Kim, ate Kim!
posted on Sunday, August 5, 2012 at 8:35 AM |
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- Flo: Pagod na pagod na po ako :(
- Ate Kim: magpahinga ka na, Flo hayaan mo na siya. magpaganda ka na lang lalo hehehe.
- Flo: HAHAHA talaga po! para magsisi siya hahahahaha
- Ate Kim: tapos kapag nagsisisi na siya, paluhurin mo haha
- Flo: Hindi lang luhod. papagulungin ko sa acad oval! hahahaha
- Ate Kim: hahahaah that's the spirit! :))
Random, just random
**My head hurts from non-stop browsing but I don’t want to shut down my laptop because sadness will creep up again.
**An ant bit me on my left leg. I hate ants. :<
**I made this post hoping that a certain somebody would read it. I think I will continue posting blogs here that will serve as a connection for the both of us, since I decided a while ago not to talk to him anymore. I hope he’d find the interest and initiative to read the shizz I post here.
**My mouth wants something to chew, but I am not hungry.
**I promise to jog around the Acad Oval every single day this week. Even if it rains. But hopefully, it will not.
**I am a ‘ballpen-less’ person for the last 4 days. All of my pens are in my bag that Haj borrowed since tuesday last week.
**I am tempted to call you and PM you and text you. But i shall control myself and stand in my decision. I hope I make it. :<
What over what?
Dear you,
You know what you want. But you also want the other option you didn’t pick out.
Go on, think of yourself now. You’ve given him almost three years. You were happy. You became happy. But you are not now. You’re aware that it hurts. And hell yeah, it hurts a lot. You still want him. But face it, he doesn’t want you back. You’ve hurt him yes, but that doesn’t mean you are to blame. Sometimes, people just find reasons to put the blame and burden on others. But yeah, you contributed somehow. But it’s not your fault.
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You deserve to be happy. You know it’s so hard to let go someone or something you held on to for almost three years, but that the way things are. Things come and go, and only those meant for you will stay.
Learn to accept. Acknowledge the fact that this would probably one of the hardest and roughest times of your life. But, IT WILL PASS. You have friends. You have your family. And there are approximately 5,000 people in UP that you can meet. Remember that this is just a phase and soon it will end. You’re strong! And don’t let your feelings eat you and control you, because nothing will happen and you will never be happy.
You heard him. He’s using his mind right now. And he doesn’t listen to what his heart tells him, because he knows that the brain is better than the heart. That he should think of himself first before thinking of you. And you should do that too.
I want to make you happy, you know that. But I can see you’re hurting so bad, and I hate to see you that way. Give yourself a chance to be happy, because you deserve it. Have a break. Nothing will happen if you cry your eyes out every night. He will not come back even if you plead, or kneel in front of him. Because he’s using me. Use me too.
Love, Your Brain.
Dear you,
I hate to see you sad. You know that. But don’t make decisions because you’re angry or sad or you’re feeling alone. You just have to face it. Because it will free you. Decide when you’re not confused. And don’t reason out the time. No one pressures you. Nothing makes you decide now. Take your time and think.And think of the things that would make you happy. But think of other factors as well.
I know that compared to what Brain said to you, I’m vague. Feelings are vague. I don’t contradict him because we both want you to be happy and you’re going to decide for yourself.
If you can continue being like this, go on. But stop the moment you feel you no longer can’t. He will be back when he’s the one for you. But if he didn’t, be happy you two happened. Accept because you can. Yes you can. You can do it.
Love, your heart.
My buddy and Me
posted on Monday, July 30, 2012 at 7:06 AM |
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Remember that blog when I told the stories of how I randomly met some of the most important and most loved persons of my life? Here is another one again:
I was then a transferee from UPLB when I met an angel. Yep, literally and figuratively. An angel helped us, haj and I, when we didn’t know the confusing process in UP Diliman, also known as the enrollment.
Like an angel, she appeared there when we opened the doors of the journalism department.
Like an angel, she smiled sweetly and asked what could she do to help us poor and lost souls.
Like an angel, she answered all our questions patiently and gave us advice on what subjects to take and the professors we need to avoid.
Little did I know that she’s an angel for everybody. She humbly and whole-heartedly serves the college and her course-mates as their batch journalism representative.
Come second sem, I was applying for an academic course based on our college. When I found out that the same angel was to be a buddy, my mind was set to pick her, and luckily, that angel became mine.
We weren’t that close through the whole course of the application process, but we became like sisters right after. I didn’t expect that we will be as close as this, that the time would come that I would tell her stories about my personal what-nots and stuff, but I did and she did too.
I feel so blessed to meet an angel before I even got to heaven. <3
I love you,
Buddy. Happy 19th birthday! >:D<
posted on Friday, July 27, 2012 at 9:36 AM |
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YOU ARE THE VOICE OF YOUR GENERATION. OWN IT!
On Aug 10, 2012, Friday at Decagon Silvercity, own your place in a nation that lets you imagine and express yourself with infinite and limitless possibilities.
Be a part of IMAGINExNATION, a party exhibit advocating self-expression through social media featuring the works Tuesday Vargas, Ramon Bautista, Bogart the Explorer, Pepe Diokno, Rolando Tolentino, Vladimeir Gonzales, Rock Ed Philippines and many more!
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Unleashing the Potterhead Me
Despite the fact that I’ve signed up for Pottermore months ago, I just started using it now due to a couple of reasons:
1. I created multiple accounts giving out the same email *because*
2. I keep on forgetting the passwords of those previous accounts.
So now, with the help and selfless contribution of my best friend, i.e., lending me her baduy and jejedays email, i started an new and hopefully, final and legit Pottermore account.
I felt sad not being able to use those previous accounts because I loved the user names assigned to me, but, to my surprise, I loved the newest one eversince my eyes read it: WaveFloo22103 It has my name in it, yeeey!
According to the wands expert, Mr. Olivander, my wand is an ACACIA WITH UNICORN CORE, TWELVE AND A QUARTER INCHES, QUITE FLEXIBLE. :)
I did enjoy shopping at Diagon Alley with Hagrid! I also opened my account in Gringotts Bank, with 500 galleons as starting savings! Later on, I spent almost 50 galleons buying all the stuff I will be needing during my first year in Hogwarts.
Come, first of September, my fellow freshmen arrived at Hogwarts and celebrated the welcoming banquet at the Great Hall. There, as part of tradition, we were sorted into our respective houses, And guess what where I was put:
Gryffindor would be my first choice, but Slytherin is not bad!
So now I’m on the second book, The Chamber of Secrets. Wish me luck!
Shooo My Bad Dreams Away
Last night, I dreamt about some of the worst things that could happen to me; the passing of my dad and of Renz. And yes, all in one night, in one dream.
Imagine my face when I literally half-jumped off my bed earlier this morning when reality bit me and sunshine slowly crept across my face. I was so terrified that I -called both of them - yes, even my dad, who’s a Smart subscriber, just to check them out.
I hate having those kinds of dreams. I prefer to have dreamless nights rather than having a nightmare. :| Maybe, I should not forget to pray before I go to sleep. Or maybe I should eat less before sleeping, haha. :))
posted on Sunday, July 8, 2012 at 6:34 AM |
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TODAY WAS MY YOUNGEST SISTER’S 12th.
And luckily, it was a sunday, I was at home and everyone was free. We celebrated at the Mall of Asia and did nothing but eat, eat, eat and eat again. Well, we were supposed to watch ‘Madagascar 3: Europe’s Most Wanted’ but, unfortunately, it is not yet shown in MOA’s theaters. And we don’t wanna catch ‘The Amazing Spider-Man’ just because. HAHA.
So, we decided to just ride the recently opened 180 ft. tall ferries’ wheel. Whew, yeah. You’ve read that right—effing 180ft tall!
*pictures to be uploaded soon!* :)
And as this day end, it slowly consumes me that this will be the last birthday my bebe girl would celebrate before turning into a teenager—which makes her bebe no more. Haaaay, time. Y U SO FAST?!
A year older, many times tougher and wiser
posted on Saturday, June 30, 2012 at 8:58 AM |
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This birthday is quite a different one. This year, I became eighteen. And a lot of things change when they turn eighteen. Well, the most obvious change would be that I could get jailed if I've done something against the law, which hopefully, I wont. HAHA
Another reason why this birthday is a quite different one is because I had a celebration. Well, I'm eighteen. I'm obliged to hold a celebration. But I didn't have that conventional one.
May 18, 2012;; my birthday, part one.
Cams had 6 ride-all-you can tickets to Star City to be availed until the 31st of the month. She decided to share those tickets with us, the Zogo Club, as her gift to my birthday and also, for the sake of clingy moments. :))
May 19, 2012;; My Birthday-Part 2
Since I'm a mermaid, (chauce) I chose to celebrate my debut through a pool party. So, I rented a resort in Pansol, Laguna because:
1.) I'm familiar with the place 2.) My LB friends could go 3.) My Diliman and HS friends could go outside Malabon and/or Quezon City 4.)There are many private resorts in there and 5.) Lady's uncle owns one.
We spent the night @ Cam's house in Las Pinas aka another clingy overnight with the zombies.
My party was supposed to start at 6 or 7 in the evening, but because of the different forces in the universe, which I could not control, we started at 10 instead.
They prepared a surprise for me. All of my friends, HS, LB and Diliman friends. Renz took part too. Well, it was a success because I cried. Well, how often do you not see me cry? Kidding.
The most happiest part, except crying and blowing my 18 candles, was the sky lanterns part. I really love sky lanterns. Renz bought 18 for me. :')
Smiling and Hoping and Loving under the scorching summer sun
posted on Monday, May 14, 2012 at 8:14 AM |
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Despite the heat and my dragging summer classes, there are still tons of reasons why I've enjoyed my summer vacation.
I've finished four novels! Ricky Lee's "
Si Amapola sa 65 na Kabanata", Carlos Ruiz Zafon's "
The Shadow of the Wind", John Green's "
Looking for Alaska" and Jay Asher's "
Thirteen Reasons Why"
Haj borrowed my copy of Zafon's
My first CLINGY NIGHT with my orgmates! *Chleng's Treaaaat @ Pan de Amerikano, Katips* The place was awesssum. I saw it once featured on TV and the food was yummeh and affordable! :)
With ze "working people" HAHA
Loooving UPJC. (c) Couz Raine Calucag
Chleng celebrated her 18th with us! It's also my first escapade this summer! Splash Island, 042812 First out of town with college friends! :D
As if the whole resort was closed JUST FOR US. :)
The following day, the zombies invade Alabang Town Center for lunch and have some fun at Timezone! Epic weekend with them was Epic!
And Lastly, just last friday, my dear friend Narci invited us out for dinner, his treat @ California Pizza Kitchen and Conti's Bakeshop at TriNoma with Lady and Haj. :)
THREE MORE WEEKS BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN. Now, I'm an incoming Journalism junior and all things seems so serious and stressful starting June. We can do this, I can do this!
Bring it on, Sun! :D
Defeating the Ramrod
posted on Wednesday, April 4, 2012 at 9:21 AM |
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We pulled it off.
It took the CJW SC 2012 team a year to prepare and make this happen. And it did, with flying colors. UP Journalism Club's flagship activity just took a step on a higher level.
Last March 29-April 3, 30 (+) people made history. With almost 250 participants, 14 clashing news rooms, a big time venue and a bunch of power speakers, the FIRST Campus Journalism Workshop Summer Camp
is truly a success.
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With the theme: Project InformNation: troubleshooting issues of campus journalism, the team added a futuristic touch complete with futuristic characters and vocabulary.
Students and School paper advisers from different schools from Metro Manila (and beyond) grasped a clearer view of journalism fit for future writers and media practitioners through various workshops, talks, games and summits. Also, a call for the cease of media killings were raised through a candle lighting ceremony.
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| photo by: Gian Suyat / Kim Pauig |
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photo by: Gian Suyat / Kim Pauig
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*photo by: Camper Justine Claire Castaneda*
For the persons behind the event and the camp participants, F I V E days was not enough to enlighten and inspire these young minds about the real essence of Journalism. But, Collapsar for now, dear Asthers! Til the next mission to save Neanism!
New year = New Mantra in Life
posted on Sunday, February 12, 2012 at 2:43 AM |
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"Refuse to believe that there are things you
cannot do."
Well, I chose that because towards the end of January and the early days of February, I did things I thought I CAN'T and I WON'T do.
January 25, 2012 : Mapua's Foundation Day, Sky Lanterns Festival
With Raymart the Mapuan :)
Ahhh, Sky lanterns! :)
February 4-5, 2012 : Geog Camp @ Kampo Trexo, Tagaytay
[✔]ziplining [✔]rapelling [✔]trekking [✔]tight rope walking [✔]wall climbing And most especially, formed a square from a round rope, blind folded.
trekking somewhere between mountains and rivers :P
Photo op with the Cob! :)
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posted on Tuesday, January 17, 2012 at 9:19 AM |
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I'm a happy kid again! :">
1.17.12 I finally BOUGHT my dream bag!! And finally, I knew what its called: A satchel bag! :"> It's a bit pricey, but what can I do? My eyes found this bag that's sitting on the new arrival section among the bags on the department store. After minutes* yes, minutesssss, of fussing about another bag, I chose this!
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sorry for the messy background!
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with me fez.
There. Just wanna share how happy I am to have the bag I really want for a long time now!
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EoXwSz PfHoEwSz 2012! :)
posted on Friday, December 30, 2011 at 8:45 AM |
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I can't help but to be a little bit nostalgic now that it came down to my senses that today, we're down to the last day of 2011. :):
And since it's just a day til we flip our calendar to a new year, I think I'm in the mood to list down my new year's resolution. But wait, I don't feel like calling it resolution anymore because all of those I've listed from the past years were not strictly observed and followed and I no longer have the trust to myself to rigorously follow these 'resolutions' I'd like to call the following as steers that would plot my life for the next year. So, let's start the countdown!
1. I WILL GO ON A DIET WHATEVER HAPPENS.
*exclusion: Birthday parties, familial gatherings and celebrations, Christmas and other holidays.
2. I WILL GET MYSELF INDULGED IN SPORTS.
3. I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF MORE.
4. BE MORE PATIENT, UNDERSTANDING AND BE LESS EXASPERATED, ASSUMING AND SELFISH.
*In ALL aspects and to all people.
5. I WILL CLEAN OUR HOUSE EVERY SATURDAY MORNING.
6. LET ACADS BE THE NUMBER ONE PRIORITY.
7. HAVE A MORE OPEN RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FAMILY.
8. HAVE A CLOSER RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.
9. I WILL NOT BE LAZY.
10. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO FOLLOW THESE GUIDELINES. PROMISE.
ZOMG Adam Levine.♡ Why R U so EFFIN H.O.T? ♡ ♡
posted on Wednesday, November 30, 2011 at 6:00 AM |
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