spills of my evil mind
posted on Saturday, March 26, 2011 at 7:51 AM |
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nakakainislang.walanamangmasamasaginagawanamin.bakitlahatnalangnggawinmali.porketbabatapamalina? haynako.dikotalagasilamaintindihan.:( okaynamanlahateh. umeepalasila. :(( itshardtobeachild.srsly. :||
sick and tired.
posted on Saturday, March 19, 2011 at 12:21 PM |
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Right now, I feel like I deserve better, way far better. Do I deserve to be treated like this?
Each day will somehow be like the others. It'll start good then end miserably, leaving me with a broken heart. Then come next day, everything will be back to normal, like nothing happened. Sorry's were said, but nothing will change. It's like we're trapped in a cycle, same things, same mistakes, making me expect what will happen next. And I know, that expectation will be true.
in times like this,I FEEL I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER. :(
Someone that would wait for me to fall asleep, even though his eyes are telling him to let them rest
Someone that would say sorry and truly mean it by not doing again that mistake
Someone that would really mean every word that he say and fulfill every promise he swore
Someone that would be awaken by the first ring of my call when I can't sleep at night
Someone that would be patient enough to tell me a bed time story, and wish me a sweet dream
Someone that would be brave enough to face my dad without my permission and introduce himself on his own
Someone that would ....
I know someone will be hurt reading this. But, I really wanna burst out my emotions and thoughts.
I don't want to end up crying myself to sleep, trying to fix things in my mind.
I know tomorrow, I'd be okay. I'll forget things that happened and go on with the usual way. But, everytime the same things happen, I feel like this. :(
I feel like a diamond that lost it's hardness.
I feel like an unprecious gem
I feel like a useless rug
I feel like a crystal that lost its charm
I feel like money that lost its value
I feel like a person that lost its worth
I know it's bad to be not contented with what you have, but, it's my selfish self that is speaking now. I don't know what to do. I'm tired of doing the same things again and again but I can't live without him too. I can't afford to loose him, not even a day. I know that I'll eat every word written here. But at least, I shared.
It feels good to release all the things that we feel.
I dont know how to end this, so,
Pain,
Til we meet again. :)
happy day today! :)
biked my way to his place, ate cornetto, then lugaw then barbecue. :) Perfect food and road trip. :)
drama.
posted on Sunday, March 13, 2011 at 8:50 PM |
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Nagba-brose ako ng pics sa FB ng kung sino-sino. Then, I happened to see pictures of couples. Wala lang. naiinggit lang ako.:( sana pwede ko ding ipost yung mga pictures namen ni renz dun. :( sana pwede ko ding ipagmalaki yung mga ginagawa at pinupuntahan namin.:(( wala lang. :(
"Sa larawan nalang baka pwedeng legal
dahil dito sa mundo,Bawal."
-Larawan, Eevee
punch line.
Nag aaway si Bf at si Gf:
GF: Walangya ka! Ang sama mo! Wala kang PUSO!
BF: Malamang. Di’ba nasayo? ;)
-bow-
:)
hey,this could be something.
I had fun today! :)
We went to mass and ate dinner together.
Kapag kasama mo ang taong mahal mo,
hindi mahalaga kung kela Aling Marissa o sa Sbarro kayo kumakain,
basta siya yung kasama ko, solve na ko kahit saan, kahit sa turo turo pa. :)
Kahit sa sosyal na white cheese pizza o sa affordable na sizzling porkchop,
nakakabusog na, tingin mo pa lang. :)
I know. It sounds stupid and corny, but what can I do? Cupid got me hit with his arrow named Bo. :)
And we had this talk earlier about memories. We talked about the day we first met.
We asked a lot of, "naalala mo ba...?" which is fun, by the way. :)
I remember, he said:
"naaalala mo yung tapos na yung KADSA? nakita ko kayo nun eh, nagpicture pa nga kayo dun sa white board kung san nakapost yung banner ng KADSA."
"OO! nagpicture nga kami dun! Asan ka nun? Di na kita nakita nnung uwian eh."
"Sinostalk kita nun e, nasa likod niyo lng ako. aayain sana kitang umuwi."
"HA?? e bakit di mo ko inaya?"
"Eh kasi, nahiya ako. Kasama mo na friends mo nun eh."
:|
That sucks. Edi sana pala matagal na siyang nakapunta dito sa bahay. :| Nothing, it's just that sana pala dati pa kami nagsimula. :/ hahaha. :)))
Then I said:
"Alam mo kung bakit ikaw nakapartner ko?"
"Kasi, by height"
"Hindi no. Kasi tumabi ako sayo kagad, kahit nag sasalita pa si Miss Fles eh. :"> "
"hahaha! bakit? :">"
"Wala, kasi crush kita nung enigma diba? :P "'
"Ok lang, ikaw din naman gusto kong ka partner eh."
It's so nice to go down memory lane. :)
Then, he asked,
"Naalala mo yung may nagsabi satin na, "uyy, bagay sila!" ? "
"OO. haha, anong reaction mo nun?"
"Eww."
"Galing! Eww din reaction ko eh!"
HAHAHA. we'll that's the thing about love.
You'll never know what will happen next.
This blog is messy, I know.
But, I just wanted to share to you how wonderfully things happened.
Ang saya lang kasi ganto yung kinalabasan, masaya. :)
I will always treasure this memory for it marked the beginning of a wonderful story. :">
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Goodnight! :*
He loves Twiggies!
03-13-11
watta face. :*
Rejoice and love yourself today 'Cause baby, you were born this way . :)
posted on Saturday, March 12, 2011 at 9:23 AM |
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I miss DERSLAFE
ang hyper ko ngayon, hindi ko alam kung bakit. kausap ko si lady sa comments at kachat ko si reg. :) ang ganda ng start ng araw ko kasi, pagkagising ko, nabasa ko ang text ni reg:
From: Regine Reyes-g
03.12.11
09:30 AM
Goodmorning flo :3 I love you tol :3
wala lang. ang tagal ko na kasi silang hindi nakakasama. :| magtu-two months na ulit. :| Debut pa ni reg un e. ngayon, si lady na magdedebut, sana magkita kita ulit. :)
Namimiss ko na si Laxzie, at ang long talks namin sa phone. :( Namimiss ko na yung bahay nila na gawaan namin ng projects nung 2nd year. namimiss ko na yung aso nila, Pizza ba pangalan nun? haha. anyway, namimiss ko na siya at ang mga golden payo niya. :(
Namimiss ko na si Reg at ang mga long walks namin, ang trinoma days, ang burautan at barahan moments, ang pag punta niya dito at pag punta namin sa kanila. :(
Namimiss ko na si Dang. asan ka na ba? :) anong bansa na nalibot mo DORA?XD namimiss ko na yung sabwatan namin ni dang sa maiitim na plano. yung mga usapan namin na puno ng panlalait sa ibang epal na tao. namimiss ko na yung tawa niya, yung tumbling niya. namimiss ko na bahay nila. namimiss ko na si flappy. :(
Namimiss ko na si Edliene at ang masasarap niyang baon. namimiss ko na yung ulupong. namimiss ko na si kokey. namimiss ko na si mother pearl. namimimiss ko na yung pagpapractice namen ng character portrayal, si donya consolation at cleopatrta. namimiss ko na yung mga headband niya. :(
Namimiss ko na si Steph at ang pagkanta niya habng naglalakad. namimiss ko na yung pagvovocalize niya habang nag c-cr.namimiss ko na yung PULIDO niyang hairstyle. namimiss ko na yung bahay nila na pinupuntahan ko na simula pa nung first year.namimiss ko na yung sayaw niya pag cheerdance. yung tawa niyang walang sounds.
Namimiss ko na si Emkay na laging may chika. namimiss ko na yung pag sabi ng "Emkay, pano to??" namimiss ko na yung malakas niyang tawa saka yung pagte-table to table niya pag lunch. namimiss ko na yung kulot niyang buhok na laging nakapony. namimiss ko na yung mga hug ni emkay tapos sasabihin sakin, taba taba. :(
Namimiss ko na si Lady?? OO naman, namimiss ko na si lady, di naman kami laging nagkakasama ngayon e. Namimiss ko na yung mga jokes at mga pambabara sakin na sinosoportahan ng mga kaibigan kong ulupong. namimiss ko na ung hair polish ni lady. namimiss ko na yung olympus ni lady na always present for events. namimiss ko na yung laging nakaponitail niyang buhok at always semi formal na damit. :(
Namimiss ko na yung kikay time after lunch at takbuhan pag nadinig na yung bell. yung pagtakbo paputang gate one para iwan ang baunan. namimiss ko na yung pagiging huling grupo natin na lumalabas sa canteen pag lunch. namimiss ko ng magpatay ng electric fan. namimiss ko ng mamburaot ng ulam at kanin. namimiss ko ng ung mini fair. yung messages natin sa message booth. yung kantahan natin ng breakaway. yung inisan sa mga lalaking malalandi. namimiss ko na yung hintayan sa room pag uwian/pagrecess/lunch. namimiss ko na yung punasan ng cake at ketchup sa muka. namimiss ko ng maduraan ng minumumog na tubig sa kamay. namimiss ko ng mangbackstub. namimiss ko ng manlait ng kunyari pajoke pero totoo na pala. namimiss ko na yung CAT natin. namimiss ko na yung tawagang ulupong, tols, baboy, lantod, kire, at kung ano pang panlalait. namimiss ko na yung kanaan natin. yung asaran. iyakan na madalas ako yung bida. namimiss ko na yung pag ikot ikot natin sa grounds. yung hiraman ng rosary. namimiss ko na yung vain moments natin. namimiss ko na yung kiss na may sounds. namimiss ko na yung awayan-batian. namimiss ko na yung huling marian procession. namimiss ko na yung prom. namimiss ko na yung mga programs. namimiss ko na yung grad practices. namimiss ko na yung after grad days. namimiss ko na yung entrance exams together. ondoy. namimiss ko na yung humahawak at namamahid na pasmadong kamay. yung pagkurot sa siko. yung unahang paghanap ng baunan sa gate one. yung pagsave ng buong table sa canteen. yung open forums.
NAMIMISS KO NA KAYO TOLS!
SUPER MISS.
sana miss niyo na din ako.
LET'S SEE EACH OTHER SOON.
I LOVE YOU TOLS!
Baby, you and I collide. :">
fourteen.
"Lagi na lang tayong nag-aaway
Kahit di dapat pag-awayan
Tuwing ika'y lumuluha ako'y nasasaktan
Pag nakikita kang ganyan
Sige na, tahan na, dahil mahal na mahal kita
Ikaw lang kasi, maniwala ka"
- 14, Silent Sanctuary
ang cute lang. :"> lagi akong napapatulog nitong kantang to e. IDK what's with it, pero, simula palang nung una ko tong nadinig, i loved it kagad. :D
sobrang sakto pa:
"Ilang beses ko bang sasabihin na
Wala nang kwentang nakaraan
Pero iyong pinipilit
Ikaw lang ang nais kong makasama
Wala na kong gusto pang balikan
Kahit ako'y papiliin ikaw ay umasang
Gusto kong makapiling"
See? sakto diba!
Para kay: AJA at DMP. haha. sakto to para sa inyo. >8P sakto. belat. ;")
summer na naman! :)
2 weeks nalang, summer na! at ang dami kong gustong gawin. :)
1. mag summer class sa Diliman--hindi ko to gusto. kailangan e. :| at anong subject isusummer ko? hindi ko pa alam. basta, maghahabol ako ng units, promise. :)
2. mag piano lesson--haha! oyes. tuwing summer nalang, naiisipan ko to. sana may inoofer sila sa College of music na summer class for piano lessons. :) sanaa!
3. mag training sa swimming--yes. tutuloy ko na ang swimming, at hopefully, magexcell ako. sana. sana. :) at nog nog na ko sa pasukan.:))
4. magpagupit ng maiksi--sana magawa ko to. for a change. hahaha. :)))
5. magbonding ang DERSLAFE--kung pwede sana, sleepover. lagi nalang hindi natutuloy. sana payagan na kami kasi, MATATANDA na kami.hahaha. :))
6. makapunta sa malabon ang V Org! -- i-totour ko kayo guys! and we'll eat pansit malabon! ;))
7. makapagcelebrate ng birthday--as in yung may pupunta. lagi nalang akong alone pag bday ko. :(
8. mag bike everyday-- wala, exercise. hihi! :)
9. mag movie marathon ng asianovelas--ISWAK,They Kiss Again, Full House, Coffee Prince, at Princess Hours. :)
10. makasama lahat ng love ko-- Renz, DERSLAFE, V org, Issa, Alfi, Denden, Khym, Bing, Cel, Leanne, Maan---at madami pang iba!
SANA LAHAT TO MATUPAD! :) Happy Summer!
buti nalang, si renz totoo. :">
posted on Sunday, March 6, 2011 at 9:58 PM |
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wala. ang sweet lang. :">
Men from the reel world I wish were real
Since im a stalker, i recently stalked my former schoolmate and now a gma sports news writer, Maviel Gonzales. I idolize her so much that i will make my version of her blog: "Leading men I wish were real". So here's my list. :)
1. Henry Roth, 50 First Dates. (Adam Sandler)
Witty, Funny and Sweet. Who wouldn't like a guy like that?
Henry is a marine veterinarian that found his true love in a 'forgetful' woman, Lucy. An accident caused Lucy's disease called Goldfield Syndrome, a fictional form of anterogade amnesia, in which each day's events disappear from her memory overnight (wikipedia.org). She only remembers the memories that happened before the accident. She repeats those memories everyday--wearing the same clothes, reading the same newspaper and eating in the same pancake house every single day.
To stop this, Henry convinced Lucy's family to stop acting and tell Lucy the truth. And guess what is Henry's way to make Lucy remember him. He films everything that happens the day before and lets Lucy watch it every morning when she wakes up. Talk about effort! <3
2. Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl. (Ed Westwick)
Beautiful Monster.
The bad boy appeal. He definitely has it. Not only on looks, but really, on reel life. But, inside the hard outside of this antihero, is a sweet man who tours around the world to get the favorites of his queen bee. <3
3. Landon Carter, A Walk to Remember. (Shane West)
brings you to two places at once, legally names a star after you, builds your own telescope,
CHANGES for you.
Next on the list is another bad boy. Maybe, a girl's greatest achievement is make a guy change, not for any other reason but for love. Landon Carter is the school's resident bully, but, when he got to know Jamie Sullivan, the reverend's daughter, he learns the meaning of real happiness and true love.
4. Gerry Kennedy, P.S. I Love You. (Gerard Butler)
husband loves wife, wife loves husband. husband dies.
Maybe, this is the hardest thing that could happen to a person, to lose the one you love forever. Gerry is so sweet that he arranged everything before he died. He sends letter to Holly, surprised her on her birthday and helped her move on. This is a proof that love knows no boundaries, no limits, no distance.
I could have included more, but i have to fix myself and prepare. Im going back to LB again. :| Thanks for reading! :)
Happy.
This blog is so nothing. I just want to share to everyone that I am happy as of the moment with no concrete reason. <3
Im happy because of many things, many events and many people. I am so thankful that I have them.
Hindi ko alam bakit ako nagbblog ng ganito, But I know, through this little thing, I will make some people happy. :)
So treat this one as my prayer to God. I want to say thanks for He gave me a bunch of wonderful people that makes my life wonderful too. :">
So here it goes. :)
God, Thank You for Renz Ganila. :) Even though we had lots of misunderstandings and fights, I know you wont take him away. :) Thank You.
God, Thank You for V Org. They make my LB life easier and happier. I could not imagine surviving UPLB with out them. Thank You, for with them, I feel home. I feel family.
God, Thank You for DERSLAFE, even though we haven't seen each other for a while now, I know that we are still friends, that they're just there. :)
God, Thank You for Clarissa Pacalda and Alfi Zaragosa. Spending most of my week ends with them makes me think and realize that three hours of travel and a hundred and twenty-one peso fare for home is worth it.
God, Thank You for my room mates. They were my first family in college. They guide me and care for me. Thank You.
God, Thank You for my high school friends. All of them took part and affected my life. Maybe, Im like this because of them.
God, Take You for my college friends. I know you gave them for certain purpose. I hope those purpose be done.
And of course,
God, Thank You for my family. You know how much I love them. I know sometimes I take them for granted, but that doesn't change the fact that I love them still.
Siguro, eto epekto pag mag isa ka lang sa bahay. Nakakapagreflect ka. :) Nakakatakot mag isa, pero dahil sa inyong lahat, kaya kong mag isa kahit sandali, kasi alam ko, pagkatapos nito, makakasama ko na kayo ulit. :>
I love you baby, beybs, tols, beybe and alfi, 5110, jamers, iskos and iskas, sandra, iya, buday, papa and mama. <3
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