Dear you,
You know what you want. But you also want the other option you didn’t pick out.
Go on, think of yourself now. You’ve given him almost three years. You were happy. You became happy. But you are not now. You’re aware that it hurts. And hell yeah, it hurts a lot. You still want him. But face it, he doesn’t want you back. You’ve hurt him yes, but that doesn’t mean you are to blame. Sometimes, people just find reasons to put the blame and burden on others. But yeah, you contributed somehow. But it’s not your fault.
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You deserve to be happy. You know it’s so hard to let go someone or something you held on to for almost three years, but that the way things are. Things come and go, and only those meant for you will stay.
Learn to accept. Acknowledge the fact that this would probably one of the hardest and roughest times of your life. But, IT WILL PASS. You have friends. You have your family. And there are approximately 5,000 people in UP that you can meet. Remember that this is just a phase and soon it will end. You’re strong! And don’t let your feelings eat you and control you, because nothing will happen and you will never be happy.
You heard him. He’s using his mind right now. And he doesn’t listen to what his heart tells him, because he knows that the brain is better than the heart. That he should think of himself first before thinking of you. And you should do that too.
I want to make you happy, you know that. But I can see you’re hurting so bad, and I hate to see you that way. Give yourself a chance to be happy, because you deserve it. Have a break. Nothing will happen if you cry your eyes out every night. He will not come back even if you plead, or kneel in front of him. Because he’s using me. Use me too.
Love, Your Brain.
I hate to see you sad. You know that. But don’t make decisions because you’re angry or sad or you’re feeling alone. You just have to face it. Because it will free you. Decide when you’re not confused. And don’t reason out the time. No one pressures you. Nothing makes you decide now. Take your time and think.And think of the things that would make you happy. But think of other factors as well.
I know that compared to what Brain said to you, I’m vague. Feelings are vague. I don’t contradict him because we both want you to be happy and you’re going to decide for yourself.
If you can continue being like this, go on. But stop the moment you feel you no longer can’t. He will be back when he’s the one for you. But if he didn’t, be happy you two happened. Accept because you can. Yes you can. You can do it.
Love, your heart.
